greygirlbeast (greygirlbeast) wrote,

"Would I spend forever here and not be satisfied?"

Right now, I'm just about glum enough that not even my plan to sell Dunkin' Donuts® on the Boston Cream Clam Cake® is a bright spot. That's one of the weird spots about these periods when the crazy gets better. There are mornings I wake up, and I just feel bad, and I have to remember, hey, lots of mornings sane fucking people fucking feel bad. That's all it is. The dreams didn't help. The weather isn't helping – 64˚F and overcast. yeah, 64˚F at midday in July. Thank you, Rhode Island. 74% humidity. Oh, but look! The low tonight is forecast for 63˚F!

As for yesterday, a stupid, stupid, stupid crappy day. An evil day. This is yesterday's afterbirth.

I did not write yesterday. I struggled to figure out how one finds the end of a circle. This is the problem that "Ballad of an Echo Whisperer" poses. It's a circle. Or a Möbius strip. It even demonstrates how a train track can function as a Möbius strip. So, it's a haunting, but since the haunting has no perceptible beginning and no conceivable ending, I'm stuck. This isn't to say that I've done anything wrong by the story. Sometimes – many times – language is simply a poor tool.

The Ape's Wife and Other Stories is out of my hair. I just have to finish this story. And write a vignette for Sirenia Digest #90. If I could just finish "Ballad of an Echo Whisperer" today. Or at least by tomorrow.

Please have a look at the current eBay auctions. Especially the copy of Ghosts: Recent Hauntings, which includes the previously ultra-hard-to-find "Apokatastasis," and the Salammbô T-shirt (art by Richard A. Kirk). We had these old-school silk-screened in 2000, when the first edition of Tales of Pain and Wonder was released, and most were sold at DragonCon over the next couple of years. Now, I think maybe four remain. So, super fucking rare.

We finished Season Four of Breaking Bad last night. Those last two episodes are pure fucking brilliance.

Comments not unwelcome,
Aunt Beast
Tags: "ballad of an echo whisperer", 2000, bad days, ebay, good tv, insanity, rhode island, richard kirk, salammbô, summer, the ape's wife, topaw, weather
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