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"I know my faults. But I can hide them."

As with the several days preceding it, there was a lot wrong with yesterday. So, I'm not going to write about any of that Shit What Was Wrong. Fuck it all to Hell (where it can, please, say hello to Margaret Thatcher). I do not advocate "looking on the bright side." It's an idiotic way to go through life. However, I'm giving myself a small break today, in hope that it will snap me out of this bullshit lock-up before my schedule takes more damage than it can recover from. So...the good:

Yesterday, my agent sold Brazilian and Polish rights on The Drowning Girl: A Memoir. Which means the book is about to be translated into Turkish, French, Polish, and Portuguese. Hopefully, with more translation rights to come. German, Arabic, Japanese, and Mandarin are on my wish list.

Far more importantly, this morning I received news from a friend in Birmingham that she isn't sick, that the scare was nothing serious after all. How does one say "I'm relieved" in these situations without sounding trite?

Today, the plan is to go back to reading through The Drowning Girl for the Centipede Press edition. I'm about to write my editor at Roc to let her know why Red Delicious is late. And the rest...well...we'll see. Frankly, almost everything is wrong, and one good day won't make it right. Good news won't make it right. I start thinking that way, I get fucked over and shit gets worse. Just gotta try to keep moving ahead, falling. Falling should be easy.

Oh...here's something (behind the cut):


Trying to avoid causing myself bodily harm yesterday, Spooky and I messed about with the contacts I had made last summer. Here's one shot. Unfortunately, just one doesn't show how the pupil is allowed to contract and expand naturally, which is what makes them so cool. So, I'll have to post more later, in lower and brighter light. That's my "blind" eye, by the way.

Falling Forward,
Aunt Beast


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Apr. 11th, 2013 05:40 pm (UTC)

Mine are still a 2.
Apr. 11th, 2013 07:14 pm (UTC)
Beautiful eye. Congrats on the translations. I hope today is better.
Apr. 11th, 2013 08:15 pm (UTC)
Love the eyeball.
Apr. 11th, 2013 08:24 pm (UTC)
Hope things go well. :D
CA Schmidt
Apr. 11th, 2013 08:47 pm (UTC)
I do not advocate "looking on the bright side."

Bright side? What bright side? Forgive the schadenfreude, but I do take some comfort in knowing I'm not the only person whose life feels very fucked up at the moment.
Mike Albright
Apr. 12th, 2013 12:46 am (UTC)
Roast ye well, Ms. Thatcher.
Apr. 12th, 2013 01:55 am (UTC)
More translations - that's good news. Your eye color is lovely.
Apr. 12th, 2013 02:31 am (UTC)
I do not advocate "looking on the bright side."

Me neither, but I don't advocate any outlook regulations. On that subject, and on the subject of satisfying anti-Margaret Thatcher material, I could have recommended to you The Happiness Patrol when I was recommending seventh Doctor serials. It's not as bad as people say it is, despite the fact that the Doctor fights a monster made out of candy.
Apr. 12th, 2013 02:33 am (UTC)
And nice eye.
Apr. 12th, 2013 05:12 am (UTC)
Here's one shot.

That's beautiful.

I should love to read The Drowning Girl in German.
Apr. 12th, 2013 07:28 am (UTC)
what do you think of Keaton Henson's new album Birthdays?

Apr. 12th, 2013 05:41 pm (UTC)
Drowning Girl CP edition
Just a note to say that I hope the typo in the list of things that were previously thought to be true that were now perceived to be false is going to be corrected.

The sense of true/false in the specification and the list are inverted. The list of items is in fact things that she now believes are true not false. This is confirmed later in the book when one of the list items is recalled to mind.

Yes, I am having to write this without my copy which seems to have got mislaid. So, the intro to this list says the beliefs have moved from either A f->t or B t->f, I cannot remember (!!?) if A then the list is actually items moving from t->f, if B, they are actually f->t. The correct movement is the one in the list itself, and one of these believes is confirmed that way about 30 pages later iirc.

Absolutely adored the book, though it was a tough emotional experience reading it.

Many thanks, Kevin
Apr. 12th, 2013 08:57 pm (UTC)
Margaret Thatcher
"I didn't attend the funeral, but I sent a nice letter saying I approved of it." Mark Twain. Maybe Maggie is having Tea With the Gipper?
Apr. 13th, 2013 01:25 am (UTC)
I completely agree with your view on Margaret Thatcher. The best things I have heard, though I don't particularly agree with social media, is the aim to get the song from "The Wizard of Oz" to number 1 in the charts, namely, "Ding, Dong the Witch is Dead". At the last mention on the news it looked as if it was definitely going to chart in the top ten on Sunday.

The best quote was from a comedian who said that for what they're paying for a funeral they could buy everyone in Scotland a shovel and they'd hand her over to the Devil personally.
Apr. 13th, 2013 03:48 am (UTC)
A sincere apology
I was interviewed for a podcast today and was asked about my favorite fictional female characters. Even though I began to speak of you with a caveat about the unfortunate interactions I've had with you, I couldn't help but speak of Dancy. Dancy is one of my favorite characters. I found myself speaking of the scene when Dancy sees the can of soup and is so full of longing, and how it meant more than hunger, that Campbell's soup is a nurturing food, a food mothers give to their sick children, and how that little scene was some of the best characterization I have ever read. I then remembered Emmy and Pearl.

I almost felt like crying because I just fucking hate that I am ever unkind, even if I feel I am provoked. How you react to things may have offended my sense of fairness but your blog is not more important than your books and your talent. You are prickly and you are in good company - most excellent writers are. It has to be hard to create and to feel assailed by those who claim to love your work. I am truly sorry I engaged in prideful reaction and overreaction and I am truly sorry I ever hurt your feelings. Because even if I feel perhaps that your response to me was... off-putting or condescending, with any self-awareness I would have simply remembered the pleasure your talent has brought me.

I think I set you up as a sort of heroine in your own right and that tinged my reactions. Or maybe not - it's hard to psychoanalyze one's self. But if I am to consider myself a kind person, I cannot countenance that I have been nasty and that nastiness has hurt you.

I felt like I wanted to leave this as a public comment because, I think, given the psychic assaults you've received from rage performers, a public apology might be nice, even though my bitchy LJ entries may not be on the same level. You're talented, being a writer is a hard row to hoe, and I sincerely apologize for being unkind and I sincerely hope your talent brings you the rewards - financial especially - that you deserve. All the entries I have discussing the unpleasant interactions I had with you are not just locked, but privatized. None of this, ultimately, matters, outside of the bad feelings it caused you. I really do wish you well.
Apr. 13th, 2013 04:11 am (UTC)
Re: A sincere apology
I think what I mean when I say none of this matters outside of bad feelings it caused, is that as a consumer of your books, your talent is what should matter. Had you been someone whose very life and core values offended me, like Orson Scott Card, or John C. Wright, that is one thing. But this was another, a squabble based on having someone I adored and respected disagree with me vehemently. It was hardly worth me being unkind.
Apr. 13th, 2013 04:51 pm (UTC)
Re: A sincere apology

Well, thank you. I would, in turn, say I'll try never again to be an asshole, but I'm old enough to know better.
Apr. 13th, 2013 05:08 am (UTC)
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