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"Hey, Capa. We're only stardust."

This is one of those mornings when the futility is enough to keep me from ever writing again. The keenness of my awareness of the futility. It becomes an actual, physical sensation.

And then there's the fact that I will never be considered anything but a "horror writer," not by most. Idiotic reductionism.

Helen brought 3.2 inches of heavy, wet, shitty snow to Providence just before dawn. I couldn't sleep, so I was awake, watching. It was pretty while it fell, but in the light of day this is the sort of snow that somehow manages to make winter even uglier. There are photos (though I'm not certain why I bothered):

From the pantry window, the snow lies, pretending beauty.

But the view from the front parlor tells the true story.

In was going to give the usual tiresome account of the previous day's minutiae, but, frankly, fuck it. All that matters is that Sirenia Digest #85 went out to subscribers last night, and hopefully it made it to all those inboxes.

I'm going outside to sit in the snow until I'm numb.

Not Yet Comfortably Numb,
Aunt Beast


( 14 comments — Have your say! )
Jan. 16th, 2013 05:39 pm (UTC)
Snow disguises the ugliest things, making them a bit prettier. Hope the dayt gets better.

No sitting in snow. It gets your pants wet and is rather uncomfortable.
Jan. 16th, 2013 05:53 pm (UTC)
I must agree. Totally wrong reason for having damp pants.
Jan. 16th, 2013 06:17 pm (UTC)
Ugly weather sucks. I hope it warms up and the sun comes out for you.
Jan. 16th, 2013 06:19 pm (UTC)

The sun would be worse.
Jan. 16th, 2013 06:37 pm (UTC)
Oh, you... You will always have your fanbase, I am just a drop in the ocean, but I will always keep reading.
My first introduction to you was 'American Supernatural Tales' with In The Waterworks. That wasn't a horror story, I think.
Nice 'Let The Right One In' avatar. The book was amazing, film was a great adaptation.
I really dig this Keaton Henson song! 'There will be coins on my eyes' great lyric, I absolutely love his picking.
I always try to look up the tunes. Can't stop listening to Stars!
Oh, and thanks for making me [edit: have to go and] look up the word prolegomenon [after seeing it in yesterdays entry]! The more you know!

Edited at 2013-01-16 06:41 pm (UTC)
Jan. 16th, 2013 07:01 pm (UTC)
The first picture is really beautiful. I don't like how the snow lies in the second one.
Jan. 16th, 2013 07:07 pm (UTC)
I had similar thoughts about the snow, once it had stopped falling. (Well, it's still sort of drizzling here in Boston, to which I can only say meh.) I did have fun seeing that the stripes deposited along the lengths of the lampposts had slithered down into serpentine shapes under their own weight, though.

I'll keep reading as long as you keep writing, Aunt Beast. I'm sorry you've been having that kind of morning.
Jan. 16th, 2013 07:39 pm (UTC)
I don't think your legacy will be as a horror writer. The very fact that people spend so much time defending dismissing genre writing means that it isn't being dismissed as handily or as regularly as many would like.

I'm generally not a fan of snow but if you can get out of the city it's really still lovely along the Blackstone.
Jan. 16th, 2013 09:44 pm (UTC)
Here we have sun and very, very cold. I've been cold since Saturday and there's no sign it will warm up. I could forgive the cold, if there were snow on the ground. Without the snow it seems really greedy.
Jan. 16th, 2013 09:46 pm (UTC)
All that matters is that Sirenia Digest #85 went out to subscribers last night, and hopefully it made it to all those inboxes.

Arrived safe and I really like "Blind Fish." Those who are dreamsick have deplorable housekeeping skills.

I wanted to spend today indoors, ignoring everything. Instead I have gone out and looked at one room for rent this afternoon, because I am still trying to move, and will be looking at another tonight. This is not the weather for it.
Musically Speaking
Jan. 16th, 2013 11:05 pm (UTC)
we are only stardust
Dear Futility,

Please give our beloved Caitlin a mutherfucking break.

Thanking you in advance,


Jan. 17th, 2013 01:39 am (UTC)
Beast, you were never "horror". Awe, yes.
Jan. 17th, 2013 01:39 am (UTC)
Thank you for Sirenia Digest #85. I enjoyed both stories very much. The first... I can't stop reading and re-reading those final, perfect lines.

The second I had never read before, so I'm glad you included it. I loved your take on S.H. and kept hoping he'd appear again at the end. The letter fulfilled that wish.
Jan. 17th, 2013 07:00 pm (UTC)
Reading this SD as slowly as possible, the better to savor it. Really loving "Blind Fish" so far.
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