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And then there are these points along the continuum, when It All comes tumbling down on me at once. Or, at least, that's the way it seems. I'm literally in the middle of proofreading the galleys for Murder of Angels, and my editor at Roc calls yesterday to tell me the ARCs (advance reading copies) for MoA are in a month early. This means that the list of reviewers I was supposed to have another month to put together needs to be in NYC yesterday. And I also have to go over "Waycross" again (there are always things that can be corrected), and then send it to Steve Jones for The Mammoth Book of Best New Horror #15, along with an updated biography and a paragraph about the writing of the story. And I need to contact my publicist about those ARCs and the list of reviewers. And call my NYC agent. And last night I get mock-ups for the cover of The Dry Salvages, and I need to get back to Bill Scahfer with my thoughts on those. And he also needs all the Dancy stories so far, so he can begin to get a feel for that project, the collection of Dancy Flammarion stories. And, really, all of these things need to be dealt with today, when I need to be reading chapters Seven and Eight of Murder of Angels, sans distractions and that nagging sense that I ought to be doing something else instead.

And I'm ever so slightly more depressed than usual, and I think it's the result of rereading Murder of Angels, and all I really want to do is go back to bed and hide in the twists and turns of my ridiculous nightmares.

So, all these things I have to try to do today and tonight. Poppy's coming into town tomorrow, to do a signing at OutWrite Books on Piedmont, and Spooky and I are picking her up at the airport. If I'm lucky, we'll actually have a little time to talk, just to catch up. But I'm not feeling particularly lucky. Regardless, no work will get done tomorrow.

Everything, all at once.

And, on top of that, circumstances beyond my control are conspiring to make it highly desirable (if not actually necessary) to vacate Atlanta for the weekend, so I might lose Saturday and Sunday, as well. I'd planned to finish with MoA on Saturday and then take Sunday off, before beginning "Alabaster" on Monday.

And there hasn't been time to work on updates for Nebari.net or to put Llar'en's neat birthday-clock thingy up on my website or anything of that sort. Or, if there has been the time, there's been no energy or motivation to spare after the hours and hours of reading MoA. I managed to lie on the floor and watch television last night, when I'd have preferred to have been doing something slightly more constructive. I watched Monster Garage and three episodes of The Sopranos.

Blah, blah, blah.

These are not your problems.

I thought that my ruminations on blogs and privacy, or, rather, on blogs and exhibitionism/voyeurism, would provoke more commentary over at the greygirlbeast annex. We always want to believe that our insights are insightful, and that our eurekas aren't old news, even when they are. Or is that only me?

Time to put this thing to bed (too bad I can't go with it), and get on with this trainwreck of a day.

Comments

z0mb1e
May. 11th, 2004 05:11 pm (UTC)
I actually have a lot of struggles with this myself. I keep a personal journal and a live journal. There is so much I want to say, so much I want to talk about (because I do way too much thinking on a day-to-day basis), but I always get uncomfortable when it gets down to the actual truths.
I recently deleted my old live journal account and made the new one friends only, but I'm not sure if that makes it better or worse. There are things I want to say about my relationships (and several of those people are on my friend's page), my sex life, my thoughts on art, etc., but I never know what I should and should not say.
If I want to talk about the bad things that have happened to me, I don't want people to respond in a sort of virtual pity party. If I want to talk about my sex life there are people who will get upset/offended.
I guess I really don't have anything construct to say about this after all, other than you are not the only one thinking about it. I just hate forums, so I responded here.
Though as much as I am conflicted about what I can and cannot say in my live journal, I really enjoy reading other people's journals, especially when they are of a deeply honest and personal nature.
greygirlbeast
May. 11th, 2004 06:58 pm (UTC)
I keep a personal journal and a live journal.

As do I. The personal journal is handwritten. I've kept a personal journal since 1990, and only began the blog late in 2001. Most of what goes into the handwritten journal is stuff I'd never even consider posting online.

Though as much as I am conflicted about what I can and cannot say in my live journal, I really enjoy reading other people's journals, especially when they are of a deeply honest and personal nature.

I think we all do, for the same reasons we enjoy watching trashy reality television (even if we don't admit we watch trashy reality television) - the voyuer in almost all of us.