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"I've always been the coward."

I awoke about nine p.m., hot and sweaty and sick from having taken a Valium and two Sonata, but then only slept five hours. I awoke to relive, it seems, an especially grotesque day from October 1990.

It's just me, or it's everyone, or it's only some people, but even after forty-seven years, I've no idea whatsoever.

Yesterday, I wrote 1,236 words on a new vignette, "The Granting Cabinet."

I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to keep up these journal entries during Readercon. Back in March, I promised myself I'd make an entry every day for six months. But I'm not about to pay the hotel's exorbitant charge for internet access, so I really have no idea how I'm going to make it happen. Not that anyone much still reads LJ – they're all too busy with the easy, instant gratification and minimal compositional prerequisites of Twitter and Facebook – but it's important to me, if only because it's a promise I made to me.

Maybe I'll spend the day lying on the kitchen floor. The view from there isn't so bad.

Here are the photos from Saturday that I'd wanted to post yesterday.





View to the north from Beavertail. A couple of the aforementioned students on the right.



A dog belonging to the students.



The sea churning below where we'd stretched our blanket.



A shot Sonya took while wading. View to the southwest, towards Narragansett.



Spooky and I, in the sun. View to the northwest.



Sonya and fishermen (who caught nothing but seaweed). View to the southwest.



A very wonderful beetle that we found crawling on Spooky's foot.



As we left, Sonya spotted this very cool book on the dashboard of the car parked next to ours.

All photographs Copyright © 2011 by Caitlín R. Kiernan, Kathryn A. Pollnac, and Sonya Taaffe.

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greygirlbeast
Jul. 11th, 2011 03:34 pm (UTC)

And really, is it all that gratifying?

It's the only reasonably explanation I have on hand to explain the mass exodus.

Keep writing. I'll keep reading: sometimes in silence and sometimes not.

Thanks.
cucumberseed
Jul. 11th, 2011 03:39 pm (UTC)
That is an excellent beetle.

There is some lamentable chain coffee place near the hotel that I used for internet access during last year's readercon (left out of the entrance to the hotel, on the right, about a third of a mile. Starbucks?).

It is a miserable non-solution, but, should you have need, and barring the vicissitudes of schedule, I, my vehicle, laptop and questionable navigational skills are at your service.

Otherwise, I send mojo to help you find a better solution than that.
humglum
Jul. 11th, 2011 03:43 pm (UTC)

That was a very itchy beetle. But it was sort of slow, for a bug, so made a very good subject. Most insects zip around too fast to get anything resembling more than a blur.
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ardentdelirium
Jul. 11th, 2011 03:41 pm (UTC)
I have been on LJ since 1999, and though I post less frequently on LJ than I once did, I read every day.
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greygirlbeast
Jul. 11th, 2011 03:59 pm (UTC)

So that makes two of us.

Okay. I'll start keeping score.
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unknownbinaries
Jul. 11th, 2011 04:26 pm (UTC)
The beetle could seriously be a Pixar creature. Cute, expressive little face.

I'll admit Twitter has become like snacking while working for me, but I am never touching Facebook. They keep rolling out reasons for me not to, from enabling asshole exes to find me more easily, to data-mining and lack of privacy being the default setting, helping blacklist peaceful protest, offensive 'targeted' ads, and general douchebaggery.

If there's a Panera near to the con, they have open wifi, good food and coffee (their black bean and French onion soups are fantastic and pretty cheap), and as far as I know, not as questionable practices as Starbucks.
greygirlbeast
Jul. 11th, 2011 04:28 pm (UTC)

If there's a Panera near to the con, they have open wifi, good food and coffee


We'll see. I'm not taking a laptop with me. And I have no other portable means of posting.

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kurtmulgrew
Jul. 11th, 2011 04:36 pm (UTC)
I've been reading your journal everyday since I found out about you. Half a year or more? I don't know. I'm fairly sure I haven't missed an entry yet.
greygirlbeast
Jul. 11th, 2011 04:39 pm (UTC)

Thanks, but it's not the people who are loyal readers.

It's the many people who I know have stopped reading.

And the many people on my FL who have stopped posting, or even cancelled their accounts and erased their journals. Many of them retreated to FB or Twitter (or both).

LJ is in it's death throes.
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greygirlbeast
Jul. 11th, 2011 05:02 pm (UTC)

Dreamwidth is basically the same, but really, not many folks are on there.

I should also note it's run by censorious assholes and hackers.

and there are invitations, so it just must be cool.

Just like the beginning of LJ. Humanity, as a whole is both shallow and fickle.
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greygirlbeast
Jul. 11th, 2011 05:05 pm (UTC)

I never cared for Gulf Shores

When I was young, the Gulf was beautiful, more beautiful than any shore I've ever swum from. It was clear and warm, and the beaches were the whitest sand.

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greygirlbeast
Jul. 11th, 2011 05:23 pm (UTC)

I went to Rockstar yesterday and they did just as good a job as you mentioned.

You're welcome.
robyn_ma
Jul. 11th, 2011 05:06 pm (UTC)
I stopped posting because the journal became entirely about my mom dying, which I figured would bum people out. I've been meaning to start up again, though, and I check my friends list daily. Sometimes I even comment.

Also, did Sonya not get the message that she needs to stop being prettier and younger with my hair? I might as well shave mine off now.
nineweaving
Jul. 11th, 2011 06:01 pm (UTC)
Glorious pictures.

Maybe you could do as rushthatspeaks does with her 365 Books project: she hasn't yet missed a day's reading, but sometimes she doesn't post for a day or two. You could write your posts and save them up.

Nine
kendare_blake
Jul. 11th, 2011 06:06 pm (UTC)
It's always a wonder to me how you have so many words. You post to this journal every day. You write every day (or pretty much so). And none of it feels like filler.

Also, great photos.
kambriel
Jul. 11th, 2011 06:08 pm (UTC)
I promised myself I'd make an entry every day for six months.

Guess it depends on by "make" if you mean create or post... Seems to me you could compose an entry each day you're away, but just post them when you have access again. Basically a post-dated travel journal of sorts.
sovay
Jul. 11th, 2011 07:22 pm (UTC)
Man, I don't photograph well.

The sea at least is as beautiful as I remember it. And I maintain that most people don't keep books that awesome on their dash.
rushthatspeaks
Jul. 11th, 2011 10:14 pm (UTC)
I like that one, actually.
stsisyphus
Jul. 11th, 2011 08:14 pm (UTC)
Yesterday, I wrote 1,236 words on a new vignette, "The Granting Cabinet."

There's an intriguing title. Yes, I am intrigued.

Sorry to hear that you were thrown back to 1990. I'm pretty sure there's no reason for anyone to go back to that period.
humglum
Jul. 11th, 2011 10:37 pm (UTC)

Aside from the chronic daily migraine that began in about '89, 1990 was not so bad for me. Compared to those days, my 25% - 30% of the time migraine is nothing...
Not that I can actually remember much from '90, aside from the fact I worked and went to school and DJed and went to lots of free shows...
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