greygirlbeast (greygirlbeast) wrote,
greygirlbeast
greygirlbeast

Falling Down

Utter chaos and panic today. Three looming deadlines. Fear I'll break the novel. Fear of word limits. Fear I won't have the collection edited in time. Fear of other looming deadlines, editors, agents, readers. Insomnia. Exhaustion. Fear. Panic. Rage. Money fear. Isolation.

If anyone wants this shitty job, I'm selling cheap.

But still, I have been silent.
Tags: anger, deadlines, exhaustion, fear, money, mutedays, publishing, writing
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