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The story is done. "Faces in Revolving Souls" (and I'm probably going to keep that title) finished up at 4,978 words, the last 682 of which were written yesterday afternoon. It's the shortest short story that I've written since "Apokatastasis," way back in August 2001. And the shortest story that I'm likely to write for some time to come, I think. I'm not yet entirely sure how I feel about this one. It turned out darker than I'd originally intended (foolish me, coming to a short story with any intention at all). Spooky and I are going to read through the whole thing this afternoon, and then I'll e-mail it to the anthology's editors.

This morning, where one might imagine there would be a sense of accomplishment or, at the least, relief, there's only the emptiness which I almost always feel after having finished a story. I suppose I could liken it to postpartum depression, but that's something I've never experienced (and likely never will), so it'd be an unreliable analogy, at best. Some of my worst days immediately follow the completion of a short story or novel. Sometimes, I think that my stories have become longer simply because I'm trying to outrun the crush that inevitably follows completion. If I never had to type THE END, then I'd never have to feel this way. No, that's not true. I'd only never have to feel this way for that particular reason.

Next up (because there will be no time alloted for recovery or reflection) is a chapbook for Subterranean Press. It's going to be another Dancy Flammarion story. I'm taking the fragment of prose I wrote for the Camelot Books "mini" chapbook "Alabaster," as well as some of the bits from the beginning of my screenplay Alabaster, and combining them for a full-length short story, which will be titled, naturally, "Alabaster." For those interested in the Dancy chronology, this story takes place a few days before "Waycross." Maybe it will do me good to get back to a familiar character.

I need to get out of here and do anything other than write. I've left the apartment only once since we returned from Birimingham on April 25th.

Yesterday, I looked around me at the mountains of books in my office and resolved to at least consider getting rid of 50-75% of them. I'm sick of hauling them about every time I move, and there's no reason for me to own a small library. Most of these books I'll never even open again, and when I die they'll mostly be tossed out, anyway. If I can find the courage for this purge, I'll keep the reference books, most of the short story collections (I actually read short stories again and again), all of my paleontology books, a tiny handful of novels, and the art/picture books. The rest will go (including, definitely, most of the comics). I figure that would mean ditching at least 1,500 books. And then there are the boxes and boxes and boxes of books in storage in Birmingham...

While I'm at, maybe I'll ditch 90% of the vinyl I'll never play again.

Anyway, whether I like it or not, the day has started, and I'm going to have to hurry to catch up.

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oneirophrenia
May. 3rd, 2004 06:14 pm (UTC)
Vinyl
I'll take it. My house is rapidly turning into Rob's apartment in High Fidelity, so.....

Speaking of music: EP is now 90% done--hopefully entirely done, or mostly so, within the next week, when all of the bandmembers' respective academic careers FINALLY adjourn for the summer and let us resume our bloody lives and actually get back into the studio.

My gods, this semester has been exhausting....If it weren't for me squeezing in the time to write a couple of goofy short stories and a handful of completely lachrimose poems I'd probably be ready for Southampton State by now.
greygirlbeast
May. 3rd, 2004 06:40 pm (UTC)
Re: Vinyl
cf. wrote:

Speaking of music: EP is now 90% done--hopefully entirely done, or mostly so, within the next week, when all of the bandmembers' respective academic careers FINALLY adjourn for the summer and let us resume our bloody lives and actually get back into the studio.

Great news! What about the "LRM" crover?
greygirlbeast
May. 3rd, 2004 06:40 pm (UTC)
Re: Vinyl
...erm...cover.
oneirophrenia
May. 4th, 2004 04:57 am (UTC)
Re: Vinyl
Well, as it now stands, we've *just* been able to start the music for that. The *rest* of the EP will be done by this weekend, most likely, and then we'll get a rough cut of it out to you. HOPEFULLY we'll be able to put together just a barebones version of "LRM"s music for you to work with on that "trial-run" CD as well. I guess right now it just depends on how soon we need to get this thing out: If time permits, we could probably get the "LRM" cover done in another two or three weeks--after all, all we really need is your vox to rip up and properly mangle and add into our own insanity. :) If not, though--if the production schedule is just too tight and we need to get this thing out *quick*, we fully have the capabilities here at the Lab to do a cover of it in our own uniquely disgusting way...which basically means turning it into a wall of monstrous noise, piano blasts, psychotic beats, and butchered voices.

As it now stands, all the other tracks are 98% done, aRvin's started on the CD cover artwork, and I've got the CD pressing info all lined up.
z0mb1e
May. 3rd, 2004 07:45 pm (UTC)
You shouldn't throw away -any- of your books. At the very least, sell them on ebay. At the very best, allow me to drive down to Atlanta and pick them up :P

You might have mentioned this in your journal and I just missed it, but what did you think of Ginger Snaps II?
greygirlbeast
May. 3rd, 2004 08:14 pm (UTC)
You shouldn't throw away -any- of your books.

I wouldn't throw books away. At the very least, they'd go to Goodwill or the Salvation Army. And yes, if it's practical to give them away to those what want them, that's fine, too.

At the very least, sell them on ebay.

It's just not worth the effort, in most cases.

but what did you think of Ginger Snaps II?

I think I mentioned it in the blog. But. Yes, I did like it. Not as good as the first film, but still worth the time. I have higher hopes for the third film, the prequel.
robyn_ma
May. 4th, 2004 12:51 pm (UTC)
'I wouldn't throw books away. At the very least, they'd go to Goodwill or the Salvation Army.'

or your local library...
cinzazul
May. 3rd, 2004 07:59 pm (UTC)
The number of pack rats you know. I don't forsee any difficulty ridding yourself of them thar books. Depending on the room in our vehicle for Dragon Con we could probably grab quite a few and divide them between us. Or if Kat and Chris don't want any I'll claim them all. HO HO HO! (just what I need MORE BOOKS)
greygirlbeast
May. 3rd, 2004 08:16 pm (UTC)
Depending on the room in our vehicle for Dragon Con we could probably grab quite a few and divide them between us. Or if Kat and Chris don't want any I'll claim them all.

We'll see.

But I shall indeed strive to renounce my pack-ratish ways!
robyn_ma
May. 4th, 2004 12:35 pm (UTC)
'But I shall indeed strive to renounce my pack-ratish ways!'

oh, my. i hope for your sake this turns out to be true. for me, it has worked about as well as 'but i shall indeed strive to quit smoking.'

no horror story harlan ellison ever wrote scared me as much as his account of what the earthquake did to his collections of books and sundry other things. i think i cried and hugged some of my books.
greygirlbeast
May. 4th, 2004 03:21 pm (UTC)
'but i shall indeed strive to quit smoking.'

See, for me, that was extremely easy.

no horror story harlan ellison ever wrote scared me as much as his account of what the earthquake did to his collections of books and sundry other things.

The Big Reason I don't live in California.
robyn_ma
May. 4th, 2004 04:45 pm (UTC)
'See, for me, that was extremely easy.'

see, for me, that has traditionally been like extracting my spleen through my eyeballs.
greygirlbeast
May. 4th, 2004 05:26 pm (UTC)
see, for me, that has traditionally been like extracting my spleen through my eyeballs.

That image will be with me for the rest of the day...
robyn_ma
May. 4th, 2004 10:21 pm (UTC)
me introducing a mental image that stays with you? that's a switch...
pinkteaset3
May. 3rd, 2004 09:27 pm (UTC)
Dear Na'reth, I'd love to see what titles you're giving away & maybe I could trade you something for a book or two. Not for other books though (as you're clearing yours out!) but there are always toys.

Particularly, if you have any old dictionaries you no longer need, I'd be interested. I can't invest in an OED, so I've decided to try gathering up various old dictionaries instead.

xx
Mellá
greygirlbeast
May. 4th, 2004 05:28 pm (UTC)
Particularly, if you have any old dictionaries you no longer need, I'd be interested. I can't invest in an OED, so I've decided to try gathering up various old dictionaries instead.

All the dictionaries, and other reference books, get to stay. They actually earn their keep (unlike, say, Anne Rice's The Witching Hour, which I never got past page 70 or so in).
robyn_ma
May. 5th, 2004 12:24 am (UTC)
'All the dictionaries, and other reference books, get to stay. They actually earn their keep'

i am now picturing your endangered-with-purging books, in a panic — beads of sweat flying, as in a cartoon — scurrying around the house in a mad attempt to earn their keep. 'the unread, unpaid laborers,' they are called, and even now they are emptying the litter box and vacuuming behind the armoire, their dust covers damp with perspiration. confronted with the visual of several hundred books striving desperately to look useful — some of them are even whistling for good measure — you pause, and sigh, and retire to your room to lie down on your face, resigned to the books' eternal presence on your shelves.

or something.
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