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No Sleep Demons

There was a bad seizure a little after ten p.m. I came to on the kitchen floor. And often after seizures, if there is not deep, deep sleep, here is insomnia. Like now. I've been dozing for hours, and just took a second Ambien. I'm sitting here at my desk, while the neighborhood sleeps. While the house sleeps. My mind is racing. Such profound quiet. Only the faint hum of the fridge, a fainter clicking from the baseboard radiators.

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nuwishas_tail
Nov. 4th, 2008 10:25 am (UTC)
very sorry to hear you have had a bad turn, lucky for me, m'lady has not had one that i have needed to help with.

here's hoping, for you, and me
cdennismoore
Nov. 4th, 2008 12:59 pm (UTC)
That's my favorite time of day. Hope you sleep better tonight.
kambriel
Nov. 4th, 2008 02:20 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry to hear that... You didn't hit anything on the way down did you?

I hope you'll be able to take things easy today.
humglum
Nov. 4th, 2008 08:53 pm (UTC)

Fortunately, I noticed she'd been out of the room a little too long and was able to gently guide the journey to the floor.
kambriel
Nov. 4th, 2008 10:52 pm (UTC)
Thank goodness.

I've fainted on various occasions and one time was apparently heading straight towards a glass patio door ~ Curse managed to catch me at least enough to break the momentum and let me sort of "roll" down rather than have a bad fall.

I'm sure I can speak for Caitlin when I say thank you for being there for her.
readingthedark
Nov. 4th, 2008 03:25 pm (UTC)
Sorry to hear, of course.

It is hard not to want to try to suggest fixes, such as heroin, but both the attempt to repair and crack wise are defense mechanisms.

The truth's that I'm just sorry that you have to deal with them and endure them and I wish I could conjure a potion or a ritual that would remove them from you and force them upon Britney Spears instead.
sovay
Nov. 4th, 2008 03:57 pm (UTC)
I hope by now you are asleep again. Be well.
nerthus
Nov. 4th, 2008 04:33 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry to hear about the latest seizure; my 21 year old daughter has begun having grand mal seizures now and again (she is autistic and had mild seizures as a child, which inexplicably stopped by age 6; but about 4 years ago she had a mild stroke and since then has had to go on seizure meds as she began having some pretty bad seizures that threaten her breathing). Anyway, I just discovered your journal and wanted to let you know that I have enjoyed your books very much; I didn't find Murder of Angels, though, till recently so I am now reading that one as I try to convalesce from pneumonia. Your writing style just hits me where I live and really stays with me for awhile after, such imagery and just this nuance of subversive darkness that I seem to crave, ha...

Well, I have taken up enough of your busy time, and I pray you are feeling well today.
frugalwitch
Nov. 4th, 2008 10:12 pm (UTC)
I don't know what medication you're on, but nothing worked for me until recently. I take Zoloft, Trazodone, and Ambien. (generic versions)

Prozac and WellbutrinXL were both complete wastes of time and money. (for me at least)

Hope you find something that helps.
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