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Yeah, no entry yesterday. I was beginning to sound a bit like a belligerent drunk, so I gave myself a time out. I don't like belligerent drunks. I have always prided myself on being, in Poppy's words, a "charming drunk."

But yesterday was amazing.

For one reason or another, I've been having a very difficult time with the vignettes this month (and my thanks to everyone for being so cool about the delay). There were the two long false starts. There were days I just stared at the iBook for hours and hours. There were days when I wouldn't go near it. And then there was yesterday.

Vince e-mailed on Tuesday night to say that he'd be going out of town on Saturday, and would be gone for a few days, and to pose the question, "When might I ever get around to sending him something new to illustrate?" Apparently, this was my "stop frelling around and write something you can use" cue. Because yesterday I did 2,528 words in about three hours. It was an angry, frustrated, furious storm of words. When it was over, I had a headache and one of the best vignettes I've written thus far. I still have both this morning. 2,528 words falls a few hundred words short of my Best Day Ever®, but, considering I did it all in a mere three hours might qualify yesterday for my personal Most Words Written in the Shortest Amount of Time®. Towards the end, my agent called. Spooky answered the phone, and I shouted something like "No! No phone. I can't fucking stop!" Thankfully, when Merrilee heard that I was actually writing, that I was making words, she was nothing but happy that I was too busy to talk. I'm not yet sure what the piece will be called. Yesterday I called it "Strange Fruit" (nod to Billie Holiday), but as soon as I was finished, I realized the title didn't fit. I have to find a new one today. I'm not sure if erotica should be angry and grim and terrifying and bitter, but it works for me. I rode my frustration. I kicked the bitch in the ribs until it spat up what I needed.

And I even did it without absinthe. I did it without the little blue pills. I did it without presents, boxes, or bows. I felt like I was hammering the keyboard with my fists. This morning, though, nothing seems to be broken, which is good, because I have to do it again today. I e-mailed the vignette to Vince immediately. He'll likely have a heart attack, and then I'll have to do the illustration myself.

And don't even get me started on all the cheesy ponygirl porn I looked at before the words started to come. (But no, the vignette has nothing to do with ponygirls. The next one might, though.)

And a big thank you to my agent and to my editor who have kindly granted me an extra month to tidy up Daughter of Hounds before I turn it in. If I believed in Heaven and angels, I'd believe that all the angels in Heaven would shower them both with riches and good fortune for their generosity. Which is to say, I'm very relieved to have the extension.

Last night, well, last night was The Santino Rice Show...er, I mean Project Runway (yes, Zulema deserved that win), and then I listened to Spooky read Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. And speaking of Spooky, go to her LJ and check out the amazing dolls she's been working on (you'll have to scroll past all the more recent yammerings about the Legendary Pink Dots). Oh, and the true measure of a nerd household is what reading material is to be found in the bathroom. Last night, I noted that we presently have something Spooky's reading called The Culture of Sewing: Gender, Consumption, and Home Dressmaking. There's also The Dinosauria (that one's mine), along with the new issues of Game Informer and Wired. Pass the horn-rimmed glasses, please.

And speaking of naked women (there's one of the cover of The Culture of Sewing: Gender, Consumption, and Home Dressmaking, sitting at a very old Singer sewing machine, just like the one Spooky's been using lately), remember sometime last year when I promised everyone a nudie photo of me, and all you got was a photo of Sophie (my seventeen-year-old cat)? Remember the pain and turmoil and gnashing of teeth? Remember the sense of betrayal? No? Well, here's a link. Anyway, I'm feeling kinda good today (except for the headache), and kinda reckless, so I think I shall make amends. Perhaps this will even be my new author's photo. I'm wearing a little too much makeup and was making a goofy Gwen Stefani face and have Cleopatra hair, but...well...you be the judge.




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thingunderthest
Jan. 19th, 2006 04:53 pm (UTC)
Congrats on the writing burst.

I kinda like the cleopatra hair and the expression is making me really wonder what is going on. The blur effect on the legs and arms is interesting as well.
greygirlbeast
Jan. 19th, 2006 05:15 pm (UTC)
The blur effect on the legs and arms is interesting as well.

Something she did with a long exposure time.
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phaedrine
Jan. 19th, 2006 04:54 pm (UTC)
Wow. Just...wow.
paperthinwalls
Jan. 19th, 2006 05:11 pm (UTC)
that's a beautiful photograph!
wishlish
Jan. 19th, 2006 05:15 pm (UTC)
Hey now!
Some of us are at work!

Oh well. It was worth it. Definitely worth it. Tell Vince to take a month off and just give us nude photography or something. It's a cool picture, sort of 70's New Yorkish.

I'd send you a nude picture in return, but I'm not paying for broken monitors or therapy.

I think your title for the day should be "I shout loudest when I'm gagged". Or something.
nykolus
Jan. 19th, 2006 05:29 pm (UTC)
eep! some of us are at work! ah well... twas worth it.

love the cleo hair and thanks for sharing. you rock!

and congrats on the damn bursting.
andrian6
Jan. 19th, 2006 05:37 pm (UTC)
The large word count has me jealous beyond words. My best day ever was about half that.

And the photo is lovely. The texture and the blur effects, along with the slight sepia tone, give at an antquitarian feel. It looks like a photo someone ressurected from a old cigar box marked "Summer 1922."
oneirophrenia
Jan. 19th, 2006 05:45 pm (UTC)
That pic is really awesome. Long exposures are the coolest thing in the universe.
stsisyphus
Jan. 19th, 2006 05:57 pm (UTC)
make up your own damn subject

...Something about bloody fingertips, land speed records, and a double entendre referencing smoking keyboards.

It was an angry, frustrated, furious storm of words.... I'm not sure if erotica should be angry and grim and terrifying and bitter, but it works for me. I rode my frustration. I kicked the bitch in the ribs until it spat up what I needed.

It was the make-up erotica to resolve the break-up you were having with the iBook. It tends to be a little violent, a bit over-saturated with emotion, and leaving you heaving and exhausted. In otherwords, freaking fantastic.

But no, the vignette has nothing to do with ponygirls. The next one might, though

I sort of shudder to think what you would do with something as relatively commonplace as ponygirl porn. It'll probably make Angela Carter's centaurs look positively inviting.

Yesterday I called it "Strange Fruit" (nod to Billie Holiday), but as soon as I was finished, I realized the title didn't fit.

A bit metatextual seeing as Niki references this song in Murder of Angels; "...the way Siouxsie Sioux sang [it] more than the way Billie Holiday did."

Okay, I risked corporate doom, but I've been on the outs with my boss anyway. I actually like the Cleopatra hair. Even if the mass market doesn't use it, you should keep this for the autho's photo for any future collection of the Sirenia vignettes.
greygirlbeast
Jan. 19th, 2006 06:13 pm (UTC)
I sort of shudder to think what you would do with something as relatively commonplace as ponygirl porn. It'll probably make Angela Carter's centaurs look positively inviting.

Let's not set the bar too high. No performance anxiety, please.

I actually like the Cleopatra hair.

My usual hair is much messier.
mellawyrden
Jan. 19th, 2006 06:10 pm (UTC)
That's such a beautiful photo! You are pretty!

*hugs naked picture lady*

The photo belongs in a gallery. Spooky is incredibly talented.

My latest nude looks like I'm winding up to kill someone. Yours looks like you've got all of your senses activated. It's really nice. Your hairstyle accentuates your eyes. I'd love it if this were your author photo!

greygirlbeast
Jan. 19th, 2006 06:15 pm (UTC)
That's such a beautiful photo! You are pretty!

Thank you. I had almost decided to take it down...
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avarwaen
Jan. 19th, 2006 06:14 pm (UTC)
Remember the pain and turmoil and gnashing of teeth? Remember the sense of betrayal?

Yes! (Though I'll admit that I laughed out loud as well.) This makes up for it in ways I'd never imagined. Absolutely stunning.
greygirlbeast
Jan. 19th, 2006 06:59 pm (UTC)
I love your icon...
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tactileson
Jan. 19th, 2006 06:17 pm (UTC)
Congrats on the writing! The photo is fantastic. The blur effect is definitely drad. The aged quality of the picture does, as someone else said, look like it belongs to the 70's New York era. I'd even go so far as to say it could be passed off as some discarded photo of Patti Smith that was lost to the ages. Very beautiful indeed.

Last night, well, last night was The Santino Rice Show...er, I mean Project Runway (yes, Zulema deserved that win)
I kinda like Kara's design better, but Zulema's seemed like it would work better on the ice. Though I have to say that I couldn't really see where the hell the judge was coming from telling Emmit that his design was "vulger", it looked like a typical skater's outfit to me. *shrug*
humglum
Jan. 19th, 2006 11:22 pm (UTC)
Yeah. Emmit's outfit was somehow both dowdy and vulgar.
"too much tootie"
Uh. Yeah....

The skirt was a little short, but, uh, how often do those skirts stay
put?

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stillsostrange
Jan. 19th, 2006 06:48 pm (UTC)
That's a gorgeous picture. (Not that I've ever seen a photo of you that wasn't gorgeous.)

And my copy of FT&T just arrived. Calloo, callay!
ex_fab891
Jan. 19th, 2006 07:01 pm (UTC)
Congrats on the writing burst. I'm mildly jealous, having been so distracted by my day-to-life this week that I've barely scratched the surface.

Also, beautiful photo. The time-lapse makes for a great effect.
morganxpage
Jan. 19th, 2006 07:16 pm (UTC)
I think the Cleopatra hair, in addition to the black-and-white-ness, makes the picture look very vintage. A most excellent photograph.

~Morgan
frankiemouse
Jan. 19th, 2006 08:14 pm (UTC)
you're beautiful. i love block and white photographs. the fuzzy legs are cool and the "third" arm is great. it definately would make for a fantastic author photo!
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