greygirlbeast (greygirlbeast) wrote,

"I will paint the perfect face. I will draw her eyes with the pigment of my mind."

Sunny today, and it looks as if it will be hot. Currently, it's 87˚F, with the heat index at 93˚F.

Yesterday is a lost day, swallowed by depression and anger and perplexity. No work, just white noise, pain from my damn feet and bad teeth, the blackness behind my eyes, regret, and so on, but we did get out and drove for a white, east and south as far as the eastern edge of Bessemer. You have to drive forever to escape the ugliness of the Sprawl. Strip mall after strip mall, a thousand fast food places, a thousand fucking big box stores, future squalor. Places I know from my youth as wilderness paved over. But we did get out beyond it all for a bit, and that helped. On the way back, we almost hit a fawn that started to cross the road in front of us.

Today, we're going to the Alabama Theater to see Gone With the Wind. Tomorrow, I go back to work. And I mean writing work, not bullshit proofreading work.

Please have a look at the current eBay auctions. Thanks.

I shall leave you with a beautiful Nerine sarniensis that Spooky photograph yesterday.


12:37 p.m.
Tags: anger, bessemer, black days, depression, driving, flowers, gone with the wind, loss, lost days, my damned feet, proofreading, regret, the alabama theater, then vs. now, ugliness

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