I sound like a lunatic. I am a lunatic. I think a lot of writers are lunatics.
I'm a really out-of-shape lunatic. And, of course, most writers are out of shape. It's an occupational hazard. I spend six or seven hours a day in this chair, slumped over this keyboard, only getting up to piss. I have the muscle tone of a raw oyster. My wrists are shot. My eyes look like I lose fights on a regular basis. My sight (I'm blind in the left eye to begin with) is going from staring at computer screens everyday for the past twelve years. My hearing's shot from the headphones I've worn everyday for the same period of time, because I have to have loud music to block out the distractions (remember those?). There's the pinched nerve in my right shoulder (another repetitive stress injury) that gets funky if I have several days of very intense writing. There are the pills (I mentioned those yesterday) and caffeine and, occassionally, alcohol, there to keep me focused. There's the depression that would come with the territory, even if I hadn't had it to start with. Etc. & etc. And my body isn't bouncing back the way it used to. There was a time, just a few years back, I could see I was getting soft and beat myself back into shape with only a couple of week's worth of concerted effort.
But now I'm about to turn -0, and I think it really is some sort of frelling magic number. I've been trying to get myself back in shape since January and making damned little headway. At the end of a day of writing, the absolute last thing I can bring myself to do is exercise. I just want to lay somewhere soft and quiet and let myself drool, until I have to get up and do it all again. And again. And again.
It doesn't help that there's only this one way that I can write. I recall Kevin Anderson talking about dictating prose into a tape recorder, and how he often "writes" while hiking on volcanoes in Hawaii and mesas in Arizona and dren like that. I can't even imagine such a thing. I can't even move to a different damned room. I have to be in the room with all my books and my fringey lamp and my Peabody Museum of Natural Museum mug full of pens and pencils and my stapler and file cabinet. That's where I write. Not climbing volcanoes. And it sucks.
And makes me soft. I'm about to begin the latest effort to get back in shape, if only because I have to if I'm going to be Nar'eth at Dragon*Con in September. But it's not an enterprise I begin with any optimism. If only exercise weren't so frelling boring. I'll never understand those people who get off on it, who go on and on about the "endorphin rush" and bulldren like that. People who get off on exercise make lousy goddamn writers, nine times out of ten. I'd bet folding money on it.
Last night, we watched Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within, because, although I saw it in the theatre, Spooky hadn't seen it. I was impressed the first time I saw it and, three years later, I think it holds up nicely. No, this is most emphatically not a perfect movie. The script could have used two or three good rewrites. The plot is rather wobbly. The New-Agey Gaia stuff is a little taxing. And the suicidal General Hein would be an entirely unbelievable villian, if I didn't have George W. Bush and Friends for comparison. But still. It's a beautiful and thoroughly enjoyable film. It's an accomplishment that transcends its failures. I love the alien creature design, and those stretches when, for a handful of seconds, you can't tell it's CGI. Afterwards, Spooky fell asleep early (because we're being systematically deprived of sleep by manical redneck housepainters; more on this later) and I listened to Voyage to the Bottom of the Sea on FMC and read Lewis Padgett's "Mimsy Were the Borogroves" for the umpteenth time. Lewis Padgett is actually a pseudonym for Henry Kuttner and C. L. Moore; there's your sf trivia for the day. At any rate, I think "Mimsy Were the Borogroves" is one of the best bits of Golden Age sf. Despite the somewhat Norman Rockwell characters, the dialogue is exceptional, the prose is smart and polished, and the concept is just frelling terrific. If you've never read it, you need to ASAP.
I was going to say something about the manical redneck housepainters, but this thing has gone on waaaaay too long.