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Summer is back with us, for the time being. Currently, it's 79˚F, with a heat index of 81˚F.

I'm so, so far behind. Back before the trip to Alabama, I'd finally gotten myself back on schedule, after what essentially amounted to a two-year slump. But then there was the trip, and then there was Hubero's death, and then I'd just begin to get my feet back under me again when, in mid June, my teeth went ballistic, and the self doubt came back. And I spent most of July flailing. And here it is the first day of August, and I'm very behind again. But I have to shake it off. I have to get something started for Sirenia Digest No. 138 today. I have to get that done so I can start a longer work. But there's also stuff that needs doing for the John Hay exhibit and Centipede Press, and there are probably still two new sections of Black Helicopters to be written. I have to work around of and in spite of the pain in my mouth, because I have months of dental work ahead of me, and I do not have the luxury of not working during that.

I used to be so on top of things. Day before yesterday, I sat at my desk for all afternoon, listening to music and crying. That sort of sums it up.

Today, Dread Pirate Lydia comes to live with us. Photos to follow.

Yesterday, I learned that Sam Shepard had died, and it was also the thirtieth anniversary of The Lost Boys. Spooky made spaghetti for dinner, which I was able to eat by cutting it up very tiny. These days, protein shakes are my friend, but they cause my body to manufacture and excrete excess nitrogen, which irritates my urethra. Ain't this fun?

Aunt Beast

12:44 p.m.


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Aug. 2nd, 2017 12:40 am (UTC)
I'm sorry you're in such pain.
Aug. 3rd, 2017 12:02 am (UTC)
I realize that, coming from a random person on the internet, this probably won't mean a lot, but I thought Black Helicopters was perhaps the most amazing thing you'd written, out of a long list of amazing things. Until Agents of Dreamland came out. And I want to be reading The Tindalos Asset *yesterday*.

If we lived in a less crappy world, merit and accomplishment would be recognized and rewarded. That we don't isn't a reflection on you or your work. I know that's pretty poor consolation.

Dental pain is the worst. A couple of years ago I had a tooth just up and die (because I'm now at an age where that kind of stuff just happens), which I discovered when it announced itself in the middle of the night. I was about ready to get the pliers out of my toolbox. Fortunately I found that large doses of ibuprofen helped. (I know that with painkillers, YMMV applies more than it does with almost anything else.)

I hope things turn around very soon.

Aug. 7th, 2017 03:31 am (UTC)
Dread Pirate Lydia is a fine name for a fine kitten.

I'm sorry to hear about the dental hell you're going through. I would not give advice on the foods but having gone through the exact thing the past 9 months months I learned a few things to help w. nutrition instead of subsisting on the meal replacement shakes which also made me having bladder/uretha issues. Ignore if you're not interested, I don't mean to be annoying. It was a learning experience for me and if you are interested I will share what I learned. I know most of it is common sense of cutting foods up smaller or making sure everything is soft, I have experimented w. how to prepare meats so I'm not feeling protein starved.
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