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Today is the 78th anniversary of Kristallnacht, and here in American we have elected our own little would-be Hitler. On November 9, 1989 the Berlin Wall came down, and here we are building walls. We learned nothing from history, and we have repeated it.

I did not believe America was this broken, didn't believe her people were capable of so monstrous a misdeed. I was terribly, tragically wrong, and for that I am ashamed, and for that I apologize. On Tuesday, everything that is small-minded and wicked and cruel carried the day, and, for now, we have lost America. Maybe we have lost America forever. A light has gone from the world.

I think I am done as an American writer. I know I am done as an American. I feel as if everything I have written is a lie.

If only I could be angry. I know what to do with anger. But there is nothing in me now but sorrow and shame, horror and fear.

Here in Providence, this graffiti appeared overnight at the corner of Knight and Tell, only a few blocks from my home. The sentiment is simple and absolutely true.

Please, all of you, please be safe as you can be. If you are a person of color, if you are LGBT, if you are Muslim or Jewish or of any faith other than Christianity, if you are a woman – if you are anyone who is not a white, straight, cisgendered, Christian man, please be safe. Very, very bad things are coming, and they are coming very fast. The American electorate has failed. The American experiment has failed us, and in one night a century and a half of civil rights progress has been wiped away. "The blood-dimmed tide is loosed," as Yeats said, meaning something only slightly different.

I love you all,
Aunt Beast


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Nov. 9th, 2016 05:51 pm (UTC)
I knew America was broken. I don't know what the solution is. We made our voices heard only way we know how: vote for 1 of 2 choices. This country is so divided but I think it's more fractured than just 2 different sides. So we line up and try to pick the side that will best represent us and sadly 50% of America lined up behind Trump. I listen to a lot of different viewpoints. This morning I heard a radio caller tell other Trump voters not to let Hilary supporters tell them they are racists, etc. I think a lot of Trump voters don't feel like they are misogynistic racist assholes, but yet that's the side they lined up behind. So we keep on fighting, same as it ever was.
Nov. 9th, 2016 06:56 pm (UTC)
</i>Please, all of you, please be safe as you can be....I love you all, Aunt Beast</i>

And you, as well.
Nov. 9th, 2016 07:33 pm (UTC)
Please be as safe as you and Spooky can as well.

"If only I could be angry. I know what to do with anger. But there is nothing in me now but sorrow and shame, horror and fear."

My husband wondered where the anger was this morning. I am numb in fear and horror, knowing we've only begun to see the worst to come and how many loved ones are to be targeted and affected. He thought I'd be rabid w. rage and I am quiet and worrying him.

When I lose my ACA medical ins, it is literally a death sentence for me.

Marc D. Goldfinger
Nov. 9th, 2016 07:33 pm (UTC)
Hillary won the popular vote.
So there are slightly more intelligent people in our country than stupid ones.

Unfortunately, we are now going to be ruled by the stupid ones.

Day of Mourning, November 9, 2016.
Nov. 9th, 2016 07:37 pm (UTC)
I think I am done as an American writer. I know I am done as an American. I feel as if everything I have written is a lie.

I don't think it was a lie to be the kind of American you thought the ideals of the country claimed and deserved. It did not make you a false American. It does not. I am upset that the country could not live up to its own standards: that the America it chose is the worst version of itself. I am upset at all the history that ran this way.
Nov. 9th, 2016 08:13 pm (UTC)
That is some terribly insightful graffiti. I feel like every one of my friends and family have just suffered a personal tragedy.
Nov. 9th, 2016 08:15 pm (UTC)
so very true.
Nov. 10th, 2016 01:57 am (UTC)
Aghast and anguished, we're madly and truly fucked. Love to you as well.
Nov. 10th, 2016 03:01 am (UTC)
The future
I don't normally speak up much for fear of saying something embarrassing, but after this morning's news my daughter and I were both pretty devastated, and we talked at length about everything, and I just thought maybe it wouldn't hurt to share what we came up with. Even though we've got a long hard road ahead of us all, we can't just quit and make the ignorant assholes happy. We have to all reach deep down and find whatever strength it takes, for as LONG as it takes, to not let them win. We have to rely on the strength of the ones who love and care for us when we no longer feel that we have the strength ourselves to keep fighting the good fight. Caitlin and Kathryn, always remember that you have a LOT of people who care for you (even if many of them are simple fanboys like me :)!). Please take good care of yourselves, and I'll try to do the same for me and my daughter.
Nov. 10th, 2016 04:29 am (UTC)

I completely understand where you are right now. My wife is an immigrant; my child is very far out on the LGBTQ lineage. I'd do okay in the new hierarchy, as I appear as a cis-het-white male (if I were wealthy I'd certainly be at the lowest difficulty setting for life), but I'm very nervous and concerned about my family and many of our friends. Luckily my child is a freshman at university in Canada, and they hold a Canadian passport. They're already concerned about returning home at the end of the Spring semester, after the power change. Too many of our friends are near panicked, either because of ethnicity, orientation, health status, or just from having their world-view shattered. I wish I could tell them that I thought it would get better soon, but I can't.
Kiki Lang
Nov. 10th, 2016 03:31 pm (UTC)
It will bad.
It will no rebirth of the past. It will be some new horror.
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