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"I want to live, but I don't belong."

It's a beautiful day out there. Currently, the temperature in Providence is 77˚F, and our high today should be 84˚F. Sunny. But I spent almost every beautiful day – and there aren't that many in New England – sitting in this chair at this desk staring at this screen. Because the writing has to be done. Will I go outside today? Unlikely, unless it's for five minutes to have a cigarette.

Yesterday I finally finished "Dead Letter Office." I think I got the push I needed to the final 750 or so words by reminding myself that not every story I write can be great. Since December 2005, I've written 136 pieces of fiction for Sirenia Digest (plus the mountain on non-SD fiction), and, well, they can't all be brilliant. That's just the fucking way it goes. I'm not a die press. I'm not an assembly line. I'm not McDonalds. And this is me telling myself to get the fuck off my back. Note that I do this frequently; it only rarely works. Today I'll proofread the story and assemble the 113th issue of the digest. And, by the way, I am extremely grateful my subscribers, and I do sincerely hope that you enjoy "Dead Letter Office," as it represents eight days of my life. The word count came to ~5,100 words.

Our fourth was uneventful. We worked. We had dinner. We listened to the cannonade of the official, city-sanctioned fireworks off India Point. And then, until long after midnight, we listened to the barrage of to-it-yourself idiots trying to blow up Federal Hill and the Armory. The cats spent hours hiding under the bed.

It's been a while since I've seen a film as unexpectedly delightful as Justin Benson and Aaron Moorhead's Spring (2015), which we watched last night. I went into knowing pretty much nothing except that it had an 89% rating at Rotten Tomatoes and was some blend of sf and horror and love story. And I'm not giving any details here, because I don't want to spoil it (this is why they're called "spoilers") for anyone. Just see it. Right now the film is streaming on Amazon Prime. I think I'm actually ranking it above Ex Machina as my favorite sf/f/h film of 2015 thus far.

Aunt Beast


( 11 comments — Have your say! )
Mitchell Henson
Jul. 5th, 2015 05:15 pm (UTC)
One of the things I have learned from you as a writer is that no matter how poor you believe you work is it always turns out better than some of the very best writers out there.
Marc D. Goldfinger
Jul. 5th, 2015 05:19 pm (UTC)
How come PS Publishing isn't inviting you to the H P Lovecraft gig in Providence? Or is that another Providence?

Jul. 5th, 2015 05:32 pm (UTC)

If you mean Necronomicon here in Providence, I'm a guest. They got me a room at the Biltmore and everything.
Jul. 5th, 2015 05:56 pm (UTC)
Spring! I'm so glad you liked it. One of my favourites from this year, definitely.
Jul. 5th, 2015 05:57 pm (UTC)
Thanks for Spring, which is making our weekly Sunday Laundry much more interesting and enjoyable. Fluff, fold, Italy...
Marc D. Goldfinger
Jul. 5th, 2015 06:20 pm (UTC)
That's good. As it should be. You will be at home there and well.
Brett Davidson
Jul. 6th, 2015 09:32 am (UTC)
You might want to compare Ex Machina with The Machine. A friend and I argue about which was the better - I agree with her that Ex Machina is a better film, but I think that The Machine tantalises more by suggesting a broader range of posthuman possibilities. It's been a good couple of years with films intelligently and elegantly looking at what it means to be alive with Only Lovers Left Alive and Under the Skin as well - and none of them needing huge budgets to do it.
Jul. 6th, 2015 07:43 pm (UTC)
Thanks, always enjoy coming here to check things out. My list of films I'll never see grows. Sadly, I've seen Jurassic World, and Chappie. I feel dirty.
Jul. 7th, 2015 03:28 pm (UTC)
I will have to add Spring to my list of movies to watch. I still haven't watched Sunshine yet, despite having picked up the dvd probably over a year ago.

I'm not McDonalds.

Thank fuck for that.
Jul. 8th, 2015 07:21 pm (UTC)
Thanks for the recommendation on Spring-- it's been a while since I saw something so full of unassuming brilliance.
Jul. 27th, 2015 10:25 pm (UTC)
Thank you!
Thank you for checking out Spring and taking the time to write about it! Really cool seeing so many people discover our little movie on I-tunes and Amazon Prime.

- Justin Benson
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