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"I can't make my moods match the weather."

Saturday, David Lamb of Brown Bird died. We got the news yesterday evening. He'd been seriously ill since last spring. The band brought Kathryn and I enormous joy. Brown Bird was one of the few things that could, pretty much without fail, get me to leave the House. In one of those fucked up wrinkles in fate, we first saw David and MorganEve play for the first time three years ago last night. I have often written to Brown Bird, and their music was an important influence on Alabaster: Wolves and Alabaster: Grimmer Tales, especially Salt for Salt.

There's a new hole in my world today.

"I'll give you sugar for sugar and let you get salt for salt."

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I'm well into the final chapter of Cherry Bomb, which will be "finished" by Friday. Quinn and Charlee are about to descend into the hollow hills below Mount Auburn and face Isaac and Isobel Snow.

I'm a bloody raw scrap of brain. I'm smoking a catastrophic amount of marijuana. I haven't used weed like this since, probably, 1996.

The sky's a bit cloudy, but the air is mild. Currently, it's 52˚F and feels like 55˚F. There should be green soon. Tomorrow, we're promised 62˚F.

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This is the last full week of the LJ as a day-to-day journal, so I hope I'll have something worthwhile to say. I hope I won't be too exhausted from work to make decent entries. I hope that people will comment. The final day is April 15th, the LJ's tenth anniversary.

Now, there's nothing else for it.

In a Lessened World,
Aunt Beast

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pwtucker
Apr. 7th, 2014 04:11 pm (UTC)
Good luck with the final stretch of Cherry Bomb.
whiskeychick
Apr. 7th, 2014 04:21 pm (UTC)
I will miss your daily entries.

Sometimes there is nothing you can do, beyond smoking a bowl. When I die, provided I live to a nice old age as planned (I'm going to need it to experience all that I want), I imagine people waxing on about my daily nip of whiskey after dinner and smoking a bowl mid-afternoon. It keeps the pain at bay; keeps the frustration in check, so you can move on with the important things to you. At least that's what it is for me. When I can have my whiskey, my bowl, and some fresh fruit, yogurt, and a walk with my dog. The day is a good one. Words are bonus, for sure.

Isaac and Isobel Snow. I just adore those names.

I also feel like I should give you and Spooky my condolences on the loss of David. For not you two -- who were clearly devoted fans -- I would not likely have heard of them. As it is, it's because of you that I know of his passing. RIP.
greygirlbeast
Apr. 7th, 2014 04:50 pm (UTC)

Sometimes there is nothing you can do, beyond smoking a bowl.

I'm using for both stress and pain relief, and it's some much more effective than so many of my prescribed meds.

Isaac and Isobel Snow. I just adore those names.

I feel as if I can't stop writing about them.

I also feel like I should give you and Spooky my condolences on the loss of David. For not you two -- who were clearly devoted fans -- I would not likely have heard of them. As it is, it's because of you that I know of his passing. RIP.

I did what little I could do to spread the word. I feel now just...I don't know.
shanejayell
Apr. 7th, 2014 04:25 pm (UTC)
Good luck putting Cherry Bomb to rest. I know it's been a pain to you. Still looking forward to it, tho.
greygirlbeast
Apr. 7th, 2014 04:52 pm (UTC)

I hope you find it enjoyable.
pisceanblue
Apr. 7th, 2014 04:29 pm (UTC)
A very sad loss; thanks to your recommendation I have been enjoying Brown Bird's music and it's awful to know there will be no more of it.

Quinn and Charlee are about to descend into the hollow hills below Mount Auburn and face Isaac and Isobel Snow.
Part of me is yelling OH NO very loudly right now.

I respect your decision to discontinue the blog, with many many thanks for all the entries and all the years of sharing parts of your life with us. You will always be my dear Aunt Beast with wondrous and dreadful tales to tell.
greygirlbeast
Apr. 7th, 2014 04:51 pm (UTC)

it's awful to know there will be no more of it.

Yes.

You will always be my dear Aunt Beast with wondrous and dreadful tales to tell.

You made me smile, so thank you. Sometimes things just need to finish.
sovay
Apr. 7th, 2014 04:48 pm (UTC)
Saturday, David Lamb of Brown Bird died.

I'm so sorry. His memory for a blessing, and his music.

There had better be green.
greygirlbeast
Apr. 7th, 2014 04:50 pm (UTC)

Yeah, there had better.
setsuled
Apr. 7th, 2014 04:57 pm (UTC)
Saturday, David Lamb of Brown Bird died.

I wasn't familiar with their music until I saw Spooky's post last night. I liked it, I'm sorry to hear he's gone.

I'm a bloody raw scrap of brain. I'm smoking a catastrophic amount of marijuana. I haven't used weed like this since, probably, 1996.

A "bloody raw scrap of brain" is a pretty vivid description.
greygirlbeast
Apr. 7th, 2014 05:08 pm (UTC)

A "bloody raw scrap of brain" is a pretty vivid description.

It's a pretty vivid sensation, too.
handful_ofdust
Apr. 7th, 2014 05:29 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry. I started listening to Brown Bird entirely because of you, and they've helped me perform some nice bits of mental alchemy since. It's always awful to know there's not going to be any more of something you love, even beyond the simple fact of mourning for the actual human being who produced said thing.

The Snows! Very much looking forward to this. I don't know if I've told you so, but for books I know you don't enjoy writing very much, the Quinn stories are giving me a whole lot of pure pulpy pleasure.
greygirlbeast
Apr. 7th, 2014 08:58 pm (UTC)

I started listening to Brown Bird entirely because of you,

Then there's one good thing I've done.
cliffs_end
Apr. 7th, 2014 06:26 pm (UTC)
For a Johnny-come-lately like me it's still some time in 2005 (you're just putting the finishing touched to 'To Charles Fort, With Love'). I've read from the beginning of the Low Red Moon journal to that point in about three weeks. I think it might be time to slow down a little, now that it's about to become a finite resource.

Brown Bird I don't know, but I have been following some of your much earlier music recommendations (how I'd managed to never hear the Dresden Dolls I'll never know), so I will give them a listen, too. Better late than never, I suppose.
greygirlbeast
Apr. 7th, 2014 08:58 pm (UTC)

For a Johnny-come-lately like me it's still some time in 2005 (you're just putting the finishing touched to 'To Charles Fort, With Love'). I've read from the beginning of the Low Red Moon journal to that point in about three weeks. I think it might be time to slow down a little, now that it's about to become a finite resource.

It sort of blows my mind to imagine someone reading this journal, start to finish. There must be some embarrassing stuff in there.
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Graham Warnken
Apr. 7th, 2014 07:09 pm (UTC)
Best of luck on finishing Cherry Bomb—looking forward to it. As others have said, I'm really going to miss your daily entries. :(
docbrite
Apr. 7th, 2014 07:38 pm (UTC)
If not for weed, I'm sure I would be dead several times over. More power to you.
greygirlbeast
Apr. 7th, 2014 08:56 pm (UTC)

It's a lifesaver right now, helping with stress and pain. When this infernal book is done, I'm telling myself I'll cut back.
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aarongp
Apr. 7th, 2014 08:54 pm (UTC)
I'm well into the final chapter of Cherry Bomb, which will be "finished" by Friday.
Glad to hear you are almost done, assuming there's not gonna be too much copyediting, revising etc. I got the impression there wasn't too much of this "post-production" work on the previous two books, so I imagine this one will be similar.
greygirlbeast
Apr. 7th, 2014 08:57 pm (UTC)

assuming there's not gonna be too much copyediting, revising etc.

Unfortunately, this book will need more than most of my novels, due to some story changes I made halfway through.
alumiere
Apr. 7th, 2014 10:35 pm (UTC)
I think you mentioned Silk last week, so I picked it off my shelves for a re-read. I still think it's excellent, even if it isn't as polished as your more recent work.
greygirlbeast
Apr. 7th, 2014 10:43 pm (UTC)

It's a place and a time, and, as such, it has a legitimacy.

Edited at 2014-04-07 10:43 pm (UTC)
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captaincurt81
Apr. 7th, 2014 11:22 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry to hear you've lost this talented musician and source of inspiration. I'm actually writing a personal essay for my blog about an author whose work inspired me to create my own work. This was Thomas Tryon. I count myself lucky to have met him. Good to hear the finish line for Cherry Bomb is now in sight.
greygirlbeast
Apr. 7th, 2014 11:29 pm (UTC)

I'm sorry to hear you've lost this talented musician and source of inspiration.

It keeps blindsiding me.
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greygirlbeast
Apr. 7th, 2014 11:29 pm (UTC)

Some part of me will miss it as well, and you are very welcome.
meddevi
Apr. 8th, 2014 02:08 am (UTC)
I was having a nervous fit in my studio, trying to get stuff ready for a show on Sunday - paralyzed between having so much to do and not being able to find anything - and then I saw the news about Dave. It stopped me in my tracks and I had a meltdown. I so believed he could make it - I had missed the news on 3/27 about the relapse, so seeing the post a few days ago that he wasn't doing well, I was confused and hoping it was a small complication....but damn. I hadn't been able to see them play when I still lived in RI b/c I was always away traveling, but I had been SO excited that they were coming to Seattle last summer...then the illness stopped everything. And I just hoped, spread the word, gathered more fans, and did what I could to raise money. I thought, he'll get better, and they'll be off and touring again soon.

I love their music so much. I listen to it daily, I use it in my classes, and have directed so many people to discover it too. It's so hard to believe that he didn't make it.
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