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"It's a death trap. It's a suicide rap."

Shaw
Apparently, I currently have the 16th most popular LJ, based on user ratings (out of 434,239 active LJs).

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I've grown so weary of the politics of tribalism, of factions, of splintering. I'm tired of watching people trade inclusiveness for exclusive "tribes." Self segregation. This cockeyed search for identity and justice, ironically, discards both individualism and an egalitarian outlook for increasingly smaller groups, marked off with acronyms and abbreviations and neologisms. And, as Thom Yorke said, it wears me out. I belong to no race except the human race. And I apologize to the world for my long-ago "Species of One" phase. It was wrongheaded and born of anger and despair.

Someone said to me yesterday, "Tribalism is the new racism." I'd amend that to a new racism, since the old evils are still right here with us. It's also a new sexism. A new homophobia. As I have said, a new exclusion. But...yeah. It's a sick fucking irony.

Yeah, I'm gay. Queer. And I'm transgendered. And I'm an atheist. And I embrace androgyny. I have pinkish, somewhat translucent skin and hazel-green eyes. My natural instinct is towards promiscuity. I was born in Ireland. I'm allergic to poison ivy. And I'm blind in my left eye. And...okay, I don't know my blood type. But, in the end, all of these things fall by the wayside. I am human, and all humans are to be accorded equal rights, and we win that fight by inclusion, not exclusion, by recognizing what we have in common, not emphasizing what sets us apart from one another. Just look at the "RadFems" excluding transgender people. The examples are endless. So, no, I'm not an ally in the parlance of exclusionary social taxonomies. But that in no way means I'm your enemy.

I know that I can catch a shitstorm of flak for saying this stuff. But what is the alternative? Keeping my mouth shut for fear of losing readers and...whatever? I didn't get here by being afraid, and I'm too old to start. Kill your fear, remember?

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Yesterday, the postperson brought me this (wish the photo were clearer):

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Which, appropriately, comes in this:

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"Stars on thars," you know. Frankly, as far as I'm concerned, this is as good as a Nebula. Thank you, Danielle, for getting this to me in one piece, seeing as how I couldn't make the trip to San José.

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A long, long day yesterday. Lots of email, and I did so much revision and editing to "Ballad of an Echo Whisperer" that I'm not sure I got anything new written. But today. I have to find the end of this story. I'm dithering. I sent an editors stories for a series of reprint anthologies (TBA). Someone on eBay bemoaned that The Drowning Girl: A Memoir was more like reading William Burroughs than Stephen King, so how could it have won an Edgar? I pointed out that it actually won a Stoker, not an Edgar (though that would have been bow tie, too), and that I take comparison with Burroughs as the highest form of flattery. I have no especial interest in seeing my prose compared to King. Anyway, I've never tried to fool anyone. I've said I don't write genre "horror." A million, billion times have I said that.

Fuck, I should be at the beach today.

Here's the current eBay. Please have a look, and if you're at the shore, think of me. Óe ngáru seiyí iráyo.

High and Dry,
Aunt Beast

Comments

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shanejayell
Jul. 24th, 2013 05:58 pm (UTC)
*claps*

"Kill Your Fear" is quite striking too. Sadly it's probably already a t-shirt slogan.
greygirlbeast
Jul. 24th, 2013 05:59 pm (UTC)

Probably, though I haven't seen it. I "coined" it about a year ago (and people claimed it was a hateful thing to say....).
martianmooncrab
Jul. 24th, 2013 06:25 pm (UTC)
actually won a Stoker, not an Edgar

I got the mental giggles, because in old Navy, a Stoker was the one shoveling coal to feed the boilers to make the ship steam.

The New Tribalism, thats more the New Demographic.. and the target audience. One only has to look at the ads on tv or where ever to see that. Where you have spokes-animals instead of humans so you can cartoonize your audience. Gangsta Hamsters to Lizards, with cheese lovin cheetas inbetween.
greygirlbeast
Jul. 24th, 2013 06:30 pm (UTC)

The New Tribalism, thats more the New Demographic.. and the target audience. One only has to look at the ads on tv or where ever to see that. Where you have spokes-animals instead of humans so you can cartoonize your audience. Gangsta Hamsters to Lizards, with cheese lovin cheetas in-between.

Not what I was speaking to, but that, also.
aoniedesade
Jul. 24th, 2013 07:26 pm (UTC)
It's so funny when people try to hurl insults and it turns out to be a great compliment. I've been doing a lot of work recently that has forced me to get out of my shell and actually *gasp* talk to people. That work has reinforced my belief that we are all one tribe, and we gotta help each other out of the dirt so that we can all reach for the stars. That sounds corny as hell and trite, but I sincerely believe that. If a person holds too much fire to themselves, it burns them up. Sharing keeps the stink of corruption off. Your art has provided a dark, strange light for me, and it helped me find my way out of despair.
greygirlbeast
Jul. 24th, 2013 07:29 pm (UTC)

Thank you very much. If I have done that, my life is not wasted.
txtriffidranch
Jul. 24th, 2013 07:32 pm (UTC)
So you don't know your blood type? Well, good to know that we O-negatives can still take care of you. (Yes, I'm chuckling a bit. The local blood clinics never forget to let me know my blood type, as I'm donating at least three times per year because of my condition. The only club or organization to which I was glad to be a member was the sadly defunct Tri-ONeg Club, run by a local blood bank. By donating three times per year, all of its members got a big party thrown for them just before New Year's Eve, and even if I couldn't attend, I thrilled to getting my invitation every year.)
greygirlbeast
Jul. 24th, 2013 07:42 pm (UTC)

So you don't know your blood type? Well, good to know that we O-negatives can still take care of you. (

My doctor has it. It's on my birth certificate. I just don't remember it....
firebirdgrrl
Jul. 24th, 2013 07:48 pm (UTC)
Well said.

Plus, now I want to embroider something with "Kill Your Fear".
greygirlbeast
Jul. 24th, 2013 07:51 pm (UTC)

Plus, now I want to embroider something with "Kill Your Fear".

I have considered making T-shirts. It's the best thing I have to say to the world.
jenjen4280
Jul. 24th, 2013 08:00 pm (UTC)
I often wonder if the formation of social groups is an extension of being hominoids (chimps, gorillas, and bonobos all form groups). I see it repeated again and again no matter what sub-culture I see: the LBGT community, the scooter community (motorscooters, like Vespas), my neighborhood (a historic district composed of brick houses, concrete block houses, and wood framed houses). It's our nature. That doesn't mean we shouldn't strive to rise above it. Just an observation about people.

Edited at 2013-07-24 08:01 pm (UTC)
greygirlbeast
Jul. 24th, 2013 08:12 pm (UTC)

Just an observation about people.

Exclusion is ingrained, yes. So is war and all otiose other goodies. Our only chance at survival is to overcome those instincts.

Edited at 2013-07-24 08:13 pm (UTC)
setsuled
Jul. 24th, 2013 08:18 pm (UTC)
Yesterday, the postperson brought me this (wish the photo were clearer):

Congratulations.

Someone on eBay bemoaned that The Drowning Girl: A Memoir was more like reading William Burroughs than Stephen King, so how could it have won an Edgar? I pointed out that it actually won a Stoker, not an Edgar (though that would have been bow tie, too), and that I take comparison with Burroughs as the highest form of flattery.

Hehe. Be careful, someone might say you're more like James Joyce than Henry James.
greygirlbeast
Jul. 24th, 2013 08:21 pm (UTC)

Congratulations.

Sort of made my week.

Hehe. Be careful, someone might say you're more like James Joyce than Henry James.

See, that's a win/win.
mataar
Jul. 24th, 2013 09:07 pm (UTC)
How exactly do users rate LJs? How can we make your LJ the most popular?
greygirlbeast
Jul. 24th, 2013 09:25 pm (UTC)

I honestly have no idea.
faffinz
Jul. 24th, 2013 09:12 pm (UTC)
Congratulations, and reminds me of:
Fill Me Up

Edited at 2013-07-24 09:16 pm (UTC)
greygirlbeast
Jul. 24th, 2013 09:31 pm (UTC)
Re: Congratulations, and reminds me of:

Nice. She reminds me a great deal of Johnette Napolitano.
ashlyme
Jul. 24th, 2013 09:51 pm (UTC)
*I am *human.* *

Thanks, Aunt B. There are a few things here I identify with - atheism, androgyny, promiscuity - but I can't wrap 'em up with any other label than my name; so. I needed that today, not labels, so cheers.

Keep beyond the labels; respects.
alumiere
Jul. 24th, 2013 10:52 pm (UTC)
I agree that the Burroughs comment is a huge compliment. Congratulations!
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