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the wind of my soul

  • Sep. 23rd, 2004 at 10:39 AM
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They've changed the format on the "Update Journal" page at LJ. That's what humans do. They change things, as though familiarity holds no comfort, or as though comfort frightened them. And humans are far more comfortable changing things of little consequence, like the update page at LJ than things of great consequence, things that need changing, like their hearts and minds and the presidency.

Yesterday, I wrote 1,097 words on "Bradbury Weather," despite an astounding array of distractions and interruptions. Today, I am shutting out the world with somewhat more force than I did yesterday. At the moment, the story stands at 9,105 words, and if I'm right about this story going to about 15,000 words, that means I should be done with it, at long, long last sometime on Tuesday. There are only a couple of other things which I have to attend to today, like the first few questions for the Bookslut interview and a few e-mails (Sa'jathan, I'm getting back to you this evening, I promise).

I don't write this journal for myself, which sort of makes it something other than an actual journal when you get down to it. I write it for you to read, and that means I usually put the same effort into it that I put into my books and stories. Keeping this in mind, I found myself regretting how entries become history so fast. There's some good stuff in the comments (talking to LJ folks here) over the past few days, but I figure most of you read these entries once and move on, which is reasonable. But I thought I'd dig out a couple of comments from the last couple of days that you might not have seen otherwise:

On the subject of the less-than-perfect astrophysics in The Dry Salvages ARCs (which, by the way, has been entirely corrected for publication), [info]pinkteaset3 wrote:

I have a book of sci-fi stories from Victorian times through to present day. One of my favourites was written when the theory of the "big bang" was first being popularised. The science of the story is not accurate according to what we know (or think we know) today, but the emotional impact of the concept, and the storytelling itself, hit me where it counts.

Your comments about factual "errors" [in
The Dry Salvages] in relation to art are wonderful. Making art is (among many things) a way to try to solve a problem that the artist is continually being addressed with, finding a means to an end when there is no end [italics mine--CRK]. It is in my experience deeply psychological and unexplainable. Stories are art that you get to live in, which is why I feel it is the greatest thing anyone could possibly be good at.

I can understand why you would be pissed off about not noticing the error before it was sent to reviewers, however, the book still put me on the floor.


I think that the best science-fiction authors recognize that the science must be peripheral to the heart of a story, which must remain characterization, mood, tone, theme, etc. The story comes first, the science comes later. Otherwise, if you really are writing stories about science, obsolescence will be swift and unforgiving. Science is, by its very nature, a transient thing. Fact and theory are not eternal truths, but only temporary necessary fictions in pursuit of truth, which may be unobtainable. Scientists understand this, but I think a lot of science-fiction writers don't. Then again, a lot of them do: Bradbury, Asimov, Clarke, George R. R. Martin, Harlan Ellison, Philip K. Dick, Dan Simmons, William Gibson -- these are authors who do understand, I think, that science fiction is about science's effect upon mankind, rather than being fiction about science per se. But still, I also believe a science-fiction writer has an obligation to get the science as "right" as she can at the point in time she's writing a story. Hence my distress over the problems in the ARC of The Dry Salvages.

And regarding Murder of Angels, [info]the_red_shoes writes:

One thing I think you as a writer don't get enough credit for is how many genuinely funny moments in the book there are. It was kinda awful, but while they're in the drowned underwater kingdom I'm shrieking at Scarborough moaning, "I hate fucking boats...."

...I freely admit I'm a sucker for characters with inappropriate senses of humor -- you got another shriek when poor Niki says "What about 12 and 13 together?" and he says 25, "unhelpfully." It's the "unhelpfully" that gets me. On the trip through oblivion and screaming chaos and old night, you need a smartmouth.


Thank you. I never really plan on the humour, or work at it, it just seems to come, usually at seemingly inappropriate moments. It's like gravy. On the trip through oblivion and screaming chaos and old night, you need a smartmouth. Nice. I think that would look good on my tombstone.

Anyway, I encourage everyone reading this on LJ to regularly read back over the entries from previous days and their comments. Some of the best stuff is in there, I think.

Here's an oddity. I know that Amazon.com sales ranking system is totally frelled, but Murder of Angels has sat at 9,502 since late on Saturday. This seems a) impossible and b) at odds with their explanations of how the ranking system works. But whatever. 9,502 ain't so bad, though MoA has charted much, much higher on Amazon since its release. Frankly, I think one of the webmonkeys at Amazon needs to slip their ranking system a laxative.

Thanks to everyone who's taken part in the get-Spooky-to-Fiddler's Green eBay auction in its first 24 hours. Today, we're going to try to get a couple of unusual items up, including a slipcased hardback of Silk (long ago sold out at Gauntlet Press). Meanwhile, we have plenty of Murder of Angels, The Five of Cups, In the Garden of Poisonous Flowers and suchlike. We have sold out of Threshold, though, as of yesterday.

In closing, I've been thinking about what a peculiar position working authors (and other artists who depend upon their art for their income) find themselves in with respect to any incentive to become better authors. It's not like I'll get a raise or a promotion if Daughter of Hounds is a better novel than was Murder of Angels. I know this from experience (that bitch). Low Red Moon was vastly better, in my opinion, than Threshold, which, in turn, was vastly better than Silk. Why? Because I feel the need to continually best myself, regardless of the fact that there has been no financial reward for doing so. How many non-artists would labour under such conditions. Scientists often do, but they're almost artists, even if they don't like to admit it. What if I walked into an office somewhere and told a secretary (or whatever they're called these days) or a data entry whatever-their-called that they should work harder, should work longer hours, should become better typists or accountants or managers or what have you because, goddamn it, it's just the right thing to do. Manage for management's sake. Type for the sake of typing, if you mean it, if you're sincere. Do you think they would laugh at me, or would they simply spring forth from the prisons of their cubicles to fall upon me like ravenous zombies?

Comments

[info]troublebox wrote:
Sep. 23rd, 2004 08:22 pm (UTC)
When did you post this entry? I ask, because it still hasn’t appeared on my “friends” page, and I’m thinking the LJ servers might need a hit of that software laxative you prescribed for Amazon. I only discovered this entry after realizing I hadn’t gotten my CRK fix for the day and manually making my way to your “recent entries”… Is this just me, or did LJ create some new problems with their latest change?
[info]avarwaen wrote:
Sep. 23rd, 2004 08:33 pm (UTC)
Same thing here (not that I'm complaining, as I usually just check the journal directly). Guess those changes weren't even worth being done correctly.
[info]greygirlbeast wrote:
Sep. 23rd, 2004 08:52 pm (UTC)
When did you post this entry?

Hours ago. Like just after noon, something like that. I have no idae what's up. Thanks for looking for me.
[info]troublebox wrote:
Sep. 23rd, 2004 09:02 pm (UTC)
Did you select the “Entry is backdated” option on the update page? I think that might prevent new entries from showing up on peoples’ friends pages.

Just a thought.
[info]greygirlbeast wrote:
Sep. 23rd, 2004 09:04 pm (UTC)
Did you select the “Entry is backdated” option on the update page? I think that might prevent new entries from showing up on peoples’ friends pages.

I don't think so. I can't imagine why I'd have done that. I'm not even sure what that means. Anyway, hopefully the addendum post will lead people here.
[info]tagplazen wrote:
Sep. 23rd, 2004 09:55 pm (UTC)
About the last part, we had that same conversation about a month ago after recording. Any time you look or listen to older work, you have that wince moment at least once, where you think "I can do that so much better" and that drives you to push forward at your craft. I think that's why all of the business porn out there (those shiny hardcovers in airport bookstores by former CEO's and business gurus) have titles like "Extreme Management!" and "Revolutionary Business", it's overcompensation for the fact that it's a dull life. Years ago I had a co-worker point out that it was the 'grey people' that end up in management, keep your head down and don't make waves. I personally believe that if you're going to pass a constituional ammendment about anything, it should be to strike the term 'team player' out of the english language.

Years ago I went to work for a major corp just to see if it was as bad as I'd always heard. We had to do quarterly reviews where you'd fill out these forms talking about your educational goals, how to improve yourself, what the company could do to make itself better, blah blah blah. It sucked big time, and after awhile I had the feeling they weren't read anyways, so on the next one under "Goals for the coming quarter" I snuck in, "I would like to have a threesome with the couple that run the coffee cart" in the middle of the paragraph. When the next one rolled around, I got a copy of it from hr, highlighted that part and the signatures of our manager, the vp, the head of HR, and the president of the company who had all signed off on it, and wrote, "Is it company policy to encourage sexual discrimination, or is it just that no one bothers to read these?". Never got an answer back on that one, but I was lucky enough to make the next round of layoffs. ;-)
[info]tagplazen wrote:
Sep. 23rd, 2004 09:58 pm (UTC)
Crap, that should have said "sexual harassment" not discrimination, limited intelligence again. ;-)
[info]greygirlbeast wrote:
Sep. 23rd, 2004 10:54 pm (UTC)
I think that's why all of the business porn out there (those shiny hardcovers in airport bookstores by former CEO's and business gurus) have titles like "Extreme Management!" and "Revolutionary Business", it's overcompensation for the fact that it's a dull life.

Business porn. That's an absolutely delightful term for that crap.

"Goals for the coming quarter" I snuck in, "I would like to have a threesome with the couple that run the coffee cart" in the middle of the paragraph.

*snork*

This is why the closest I ever came to holding a corporate job was three months I worked for a pet store.

[info]extatika wrote:
Sep. 23rd, 2004 10:08 pm (UTC)
Waffle waffle waffle squeak.
I don't get paid at all for my teensy smattering of fiction, and I don't especially hope to (though I might set up a "tip jar" donation thing for it one day). I don't especially hope to get paid for painting & visarts, but it's very nice when I do.
I am terrified, I think, of being a professional artist of any kind because I'm afraid of cannibalising my soul for a paycheque if my passion fails me.
I think that says a lot about why we try to better ourselves in our passions - and art & science are both passions of comparable nature, whereas I think we'd be hard pressed trying to find a secretary who regarded typing as a passion.
I think everyone has passions, but not everyone finds them. Those who do are driven by them to ever higher peaks of beauty, I think because maybe the passion is not for the thing itself, for science or mathematics or sport or writing, but for the heights it can attain, and we strive for that because we know in our hearts the greatest we can be is found in the greatest manifestation of our passions, and we strive for perfection.
Perhaps we seek godhood in this manner, perhaps we seek purpose, perhaps we can attain neither of these yet still seek our own greatness and contentment. Perhaps it's the hardwiring of a species of ape that succeeded by pushing limits & boundaries and exploring both conceptual and tangible realities.
[info]dyfferent wrote:
Sep. 23rd, 2004 10:54 pm (UTC)
Just a thought--if there are posts you want to be able to pull out in future, try the Memories feature. You can add specific posts to an index of memorable posts, with descriptions of why you're marking that post. You can mark posts of your own or posts you read in other journals, and the memory posts can be public or private or friends-only.

You may already use this, but in case you don't, it's quite good & I can recommend it.
[info]greygirlbeast wrote:
Sep. 24th, 2004 02:20 pm (UTC)
Just a thought--if there are posts you want to be able to pull out in future, try the Memories feature. You can add specific posts to an index of memorable posts, with descriptions of why you're marking that post. You can mark posts of your own or posts you read in other journals, and the memory posts can be public or private or friends-only.

I shall look into this, as soon as I have time. Thanks!
[info]faithhopetricks wrote:
Sep. 24th, 2004 07:14 am (UTC)
Ooh, I would second the Memories suggestion -- posts you find especially memorable or interesting are on that page in whatever category you choose. You can also pick entries from other peoples' LJs, too. A lot of people (well, me) check out the Memories first when they happen on an LJ.