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I hear it's snowing in Athens. Athens, Georgia. Two to four inches, I think Kathryn told me. I remember one or two snows from my years in Athens. I have this photograph of the Carriage House – where I lived – in snow. A white dusting on the magnolia that gave me a view of green all year round. Warning, large photo. I didn't feel like opening Photoshop and wrestling with resizing it. Anyway, this would have been 1996 or 1997. Fuck, it could have been 1995. Or even 1994, my first winter there. I honestly cannot recall which year, and the photos are undated. A few years ago, I had a memory.



Here in Providence, it's sunny and 18˚F, but the windchill is at 10˚F. We still have snow from many, many days ago.

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Pete Seger died yesterday. I'm not sure if I have words for that. No, I don't.

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I haven't left the House in eleven days.

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Marooned in Rhode Island, one thing I miss most is noon. There is no noon here. Not really. The sun is never truly overhead, but always hanging somewhere low towards the southern horizon, and even in summer there's the ugly wan light of autumn.

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Though I'm not having seizures, all the other things the Lamictal was treating are back. My thoughts are a bucket of broken glass. I truly do not know what to do. I'm not going back on the shit. Yesterday I seethed and thrummed and there was nothing else at all. And this winter has ground me down to bone. I am not well.

I didn't work yesterday.

I've lost a month. The first month of 2014 is pretty much over, and I lost it.

That's impressive, even by my standards.

Maybe Tomorrow,
Aunt Beast

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witchchild
Jan. 28th, 2014 04:48 pm (UTC)
I do hope you are soon able to find something to help with your brain chemistry. Stay warm. It's not much better directly west of you.
greygirlbeast
Jan. 28th, 2014 04:49 pm (UTC)

I do hope you are soon able to find something to help with your brain chemistry.

Thank you.

But I'm not in a hopeful mood.
dipsomaniac
Jan. 28th, 2014 05:12 pm (UTC)
After seeing that picture I looked up "Carriage House" to find out more about the style. Would be interesting to know the floor plan. Did it seem spacious inside or confining?

I've lost a month. The first month of 2014 is pretty much over, and I lost it.

I know this feeling. I am typically not the type to do New Year's Resolutions but I thought it would be helpful for me to set up some monthly goals I knew I could accomplish if I just put my mind to it. For some reason this is turning out to be more difficult than I thought.

I haven't left the House in eleven days.

Hope you get out and about soon.
greygirlbeast
Jan. 28th, 2014 05:23 pm (UTC)

After seeing that picture I looked up "Carriage House" to find out more about the style. Would be interesting to know the floor plan. Did it seem spacious inside or confining

It was tiny. I can't recall the square footage or anything. But it had actually been a carriage house, in the 1800s, and was on the property of a plantation house.
alumiere
Jan. 28th, 2014 08:25 pm (UTC)
May the sun come out for real and warm your corner of the world soon.
greygirlbeast
Jan. 28th, 2014 08:55 pm (UTC)

Thank you.
setsuled
Jan. 28th, 2014 10:03 pm (UTC)
Warning, large photo.

It's large on my friends list but for some reason small when I click on this entry. Maybe Live Journal is experimenting again.

Interesting photograph. I've only seen snow a couple times in my life. Once I saw it snow for around seven seconds in San Diego in the late 80s. I remember all the frail flakes disintegrating on the asphalt.

And this winter has ground me down to bone. I am not well.

I'm sorry. I hope it warms up abruptly.

Edited at 2014-01-28 10:03 pm (UTC)
greygirlbeast
Jan. 28th, 2014 10:11 pm (UTC)

Maybe Live Journal is experimenting again.

Who knows...
sovay
Jan. 29th, 2014 05:54 am (UTC)
Yesterday I seethed and thrummed and there was nothing else at all. And this winter has ground me down to bone. I am not well.

Be as well as you can be. I miss you.
Kelly Lowe
Jan. 29th, 2014 04:22 pm (UTC)
I was reading your book Threshold and wanted to find out more about you, and that's how I found your blog. After lurking for a couple days, I thought I would finally say hello. I'm sorry you're going through a bad patch and am hoping that something will come along soon to lift you up. Even though you don't know me, I am pulling for you. (Also, Gillian Welch is totally wonderful.)
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